I am a single mom in my 30's I lost a child to SIDS in 2002 this is a web site dedicated to his memory I wrote this paper for a class I had in college last semester I hope it will be beneficial to you I was told it had some good information on it my professor I hope it may help someone to understand SIDS better.
Douglas was such a special gift given to us by God. I am so very thankful I was chosen to be his mother. Douglas will always be remembered by us and those who knew him. It comforts me to know that "as long, as his beautiful spirit lives on in our hearts, he will always be with us." I believe, with all my heart, that God most certainly has a plan. Right now I may not know what that plan is, or even like it, I don't have to, but there IS a plan. God does not make mistakes. We are all put on this earth for a reason and only He can say when we have fulfilled our earthly duties. Douglas is in the most awesome place-Heaven. He is in the hands of the Lord where there is neither pain nor suffering, no evil, nothing but Good! We look forward to the day when we will join him. I know that as much as I miss my son, life must go on. And that does not make his death any less painful. I long to see his beautiful face daily, I miss the beautiful sound of his giggling, the sparkle in is eyes and in his ever smiling face-but also I can now feel the beautiful presence of his spirit surrounding me. He is my Guardian Angel. Douglas was such a beautiful person both inside and out. He was so full of energy, so full of life, so full of love. I know that he wouldn't want us to be sad forever, but do the best we can to move forward, turning to God for our strength. I believe that when we truly feel that we cannot possibly go on, somehow we do because our children push us to. For our children are "special angels" God wanted with him. God wanted Douglas. God needed Douglas. I think somewhere with himself I Douglas knew that too. He always lived life to the fullest and with the greatest meaning as only a 3 ½ month old could.